It has been sometime since my last post. Life has been very hectic between a new job, wedding planning, and winding up the year end with family/friends. However, I wanted to take some time to write out some brief thoughts about a recent personal event. None are likely to be uniquely insightful and may just come across as platitudes, however, they are important notions to me nonetheless.
Recently, we were rocked by disturbing news about a close family member who was hospitalized due to an unforeseen health issue. I won’t say whom exactly, but it was completely unexpected. We’re all extremely happy and grateful that the awesome staff at our local hospital did such an incredible job with the required procedure and monitoring thereafter. The family member is out of the hospital and back home resting.
In all the Holiday chaos, we are doing our best to live by our ethos and avoid ultra consumerism. However, certain events can shock you and bring you back to the reality that life is the most fragile of creatures.
Death is a natural part of life. As an Actuary I know there are small, yet not at all impossible, mortality rates across all ages and genders. Even as a 30 year old male, I know there’s a sliver of probability of death. Yet, when it occurs or casts its shadow on someone “too young” or “too soon” we go through a period of self-reflection.
I plan to think about death more in the New Year. Not through a depressive lens, but to be realistic. To understand there is a chance no matter how small, and to know it is a natural end to a life cycle.
Certainly part of my ethos is to live with love in my heart and maximize the happiness of myself and those close to me. However being the type of person I am, I can get lost in the numbers and savings aspects of trying to live a more frugal, meaningful and happy life. I need to do a better job of reminding myself to enjoy the fantastic company I am in, sharing in the beautiful moments we create together, and accepting life is finite.
Wishing everyone a Happy Holidays and hope within the chaos, you find some moments of happiness with family.